Miss The Misery

Don't change your mind,

you're wasting light.

-Miss The Misery by Foo Fighters

Slow your roll. I'm not miserable at all so don't get to thinking, "my goodness, ANOTHER emo post? Grow up, girlfriend."

Precisely the opposite. I am thrilled with where my life is. Sure, I have moments of extreme anxiety (typically when I'm PMS-y, then it goes away), but otherwise? I am so happy with my life.

Have things ever felt different for you? Boyfriend and I have been talking, making plans and this time, plans feel different. Plans feel real. Universe is telling me, "yes, this is the time."

That Foo Fighters lyric has been sticking with me the last couple of days. Whenever I feel lazy, unmotivated, I think of the lyric above. I need to stop wasting my time and get a move on. I have a plan, I have ideas, now I need to act on them.

And for once, I'm so motivated to actually achieve something.

Go team!

Hey. Come to this thing.

Read all about it!

It seems that people read this blog. It also seems they get crazy enough to let me know they read it and that I need to update more often. WELL THEN. Let's see what I can remember...

February:

• I posted about this on my last post, but I am officially a Bomber Babe. It is so great skating with this group of girls. The Bombers are the geekiest of the bunch. I can't believe I wanted to be a Cleaver when I feel like I belong to the Bombers. We win pretty much every scrimmage and we don't have private practices, we're that good.
  
• My boyfriend got a job with the Country Club. So, what that means is he eats better than I do and eats it for free.
  

March:

• I removed the MUSE decal from my back window and replaced it with a Bombers decal. I'm really into roller derby.
• I REMEMBER MY BIG NEWS FROM THE LAST POST! My league is going BANKED TRACK. Allow me to explain to you what that is. Right now, we skate and compete on flat surfaces. That's cool and all, but have you seen Whip It? Or any other show about roller derby? Our track will go from this ___ to this /. Except not at that angle. That's just dangerous.
• The Being Human finale about killed me. (BBC, not US. Get it together.)
• My mom got a Wii. So, we play that every now and then.

April:

• I finally moved out of my parents basement. I am a grown up. I live with my boss, and her mom (her boss) owns the house. It's a good thing we like each other. She is teaching me so many things: Don't use a microwave (it'll give you cancer), don't cook on the wrong side of the tin foil (it'll give you cancer), be careful when using teflon (it'll give you cancer), use detergent with "HE" on the label (it will eff up your high efficiency washer, verdicts out on if it will give you cancer).
  
• Saw David Sedaris do a reading at Kingsbury Hall. I about peed my pants. He is one of my favorite authors so it was kind of incredible to see/hear him live.
• Foo Fighters went on tour (October 11, tickets please).
• I had a birthday and turned a boring 22 years old. Wake me when I can rent a car.
• I fostered my first foster dog. His name was Harlow and he ate my door because he had some separation anxiety. He got adopted at Super Adoption and gets to live on a ranch with an older couple.

May:

• Osama Bin Laden was killed, just in case you were living under a rock.
• I was up for auction at our derby prom and my aunt (who lives in North Dakota) won me. It was a great, drunken night.
• Judgment Day came and went. No rapture :(
• I volunteered for Strut Your Mutt. It was such a great time. There are no better people than dog lovers.
• The anniversary of the Lost finale. I still weep.
• I still struggle with picking a major for college. I'm thinking nutrition?

June:

• I played my first bout in Richfield. I feel like I got beat up. But it was the first bout my parents got to see me in, and my mom even said she was proud of me. Take that, future need for therapy!
• I finally got around to reading The Hunger Games and now I'm hoooooked.
• My boyfriend won a trip to Vegas in July! My first trip to Vegas ya'll!
  

I think that's about it (or at least what previous Facebook statuses provide). I've lost 30 lbs since last year. That's pretty cool. I'm still rockin' my job at The Dog's Meow. I am in charge of the newsletter so I still get some writing in. I'm currently trying to flex my creative writing muscles. It's a slow and arduous process but I'll get there. I don't know what else to write so here is a picture of my roommates dog, Marleau.

ROLLER DERBY NEWS

I have news! I am officially on a team with SCDG! I'm a BOMBER BABE.

Those of you who paid attention when my mom played, she was on the Bomber Babes. I'm the first generational derby girl with SCDG. Needless to say, I'm pretty excited.

There is also other HUGE news, but I'm saving that for a later date :) I'M SO EXCITED.

Sidelined

I am pretty sure I don't get mad often. I get frustrated, upset, and bitter, but I rarely experience anger.

Today, I'm really angry.

Someone dear to me is getting married, and her fiancee is allergic to cats. She's decided to put both of them down. One cat is really old, and has a myriad of health problems. The other cat, however, is fine. She is old, but you wouldn't know it by the way she acts. Put her on a proper diet and she'd be wonderful. My friend's vet is complying with her wishes to put both cats down.

Let's just say this: I've dated Zack for about 4 years now, and if he wanted to get married right away but I had to get rid of my cat, he knows damn well we would have to wait. I've known my cat longer than I've known him and I would not kill my cat because it made my boyfriend sneeze.

Okay, that was harsh. But I don't know if you know this, this goes against EVERYTHING in me. It is so painful to watch her make this decision when I know there are better options out there. I had ONE DAY and I found that cat an alternative.

Ugh I can't even talk about this anymore. Just one more push towards my dream of working in animal rescue, I guess.

Here's a quick update:

1. I made it onto the Fresh Meat of the Salt City Derby Girls, it's been so great. I'm covered in bruises and more athletic, I've even made a friend!

2. I finally got that iPhone I've been complaining about.

3. I loooove my job, I have responsibilities and I'm continually learning.

4. Staying in SLC for school, but unsure of where to transfer, help? Anyone?

5. Yes, Zack and I are still together.

Which brings me to a bit of seriousness. What happens when you feel like the universe stops listening to you? I've been putting the power of positive energy to use in my life and it's helped me immensely. However, it becomes hard to watch the lives of the ones you love when they are making wrong decisions or not getting fair treatment. It's hard when you feel you put everything out there and receive nothing in return. You try to be humble, you try to be grateful and kind, but rudeness and selfishness is thrown back at you.

I would love nothing more than to grow and move forward, but the universe seems to want me to stay put for a bit longer, and I guess I have to learn how to accept that, even if it seems extremely unfair.

Day 12

I found out about Blogger back in my first year of college. I was sick of the Myspace blog scene and a bunch of friends had started up in Blogger, and here I am.

Day 11

I don't have another picture of me with friends (recently) soooo here's one that just makes me laugh

Day 10

Song for when I am happy: Ain't No Good by Cake

Song for when I am sad: Firework by Katy Perry

Song for when I am bored: Speechless by Lady Gaga ( I like to belt this one out in the car)

Song for when I am hyped: Kick Start My Heart by Motley Crue

Song for when I am mad: Plug In Baby by Muse

Day 9

In the past few days, I've been proud of myself. I'm a completely different person than I was earlier in the year and I'm happy with myself.

Day 8

Short term goals for this month:

• Finish Christmas shopping.
• Go see the lights (either at the temple or the zoo).
• Reflect
• Enjoy life :)

Day 7

Someone that has the biggest impact on me:

Zack, he's wonderful. He pushes me, supports me, and is always there for me (even if I get crazy mad with him sometimes).

Something that has the biggest impact on me:

Everyday I grow more and more interested in animal rescue, I think that's what I want to do with my degree.

Day 6

All-American hero. How could you not love the classics?

Day 5

Pictures don't quite do it justice, the Cliffs of Moher. It's quite breathtaking.

Day 4

A habit I wish I didn't have.

I would have to say...sometimes lack of follow-through. However, I've been working on it lately and I've made a lot of progress. If I do have annoying habits, I'm not sorry I have them and I don't want to be rid of them, I'm quite satisfied with myself lately :)

Day 3

Me and my girls

Me and my boys

Day 2

The meaning behind The Girl Named Chuck.

Well once upon a time there was a show called Pushing Daisies and I was really into that show. One of the characters was often referred to as The Girl Named Chuck, and I really liked her so I adopted that as my blog name. Pretty simple.

The You Stay Classy and Thanks For Stopping By! is from Anchorman. A classic.

Day 1

1. I am a HUGE Harry Potter fan.
2. I made the SCGD! I am a derby girl now.
3. I work with dog food.
4. I haven't read a book in a while. :(
5. I actually own very little.
6. I am glad the show Raising Hope exists.
7. I cannot sleep without the TV on.
8. I've actually accomplished most of my new year's resolutions.
9. When I'm baking, I have to listen to Lady Gaga
10. I get to transfer to Weber State University next year!
11. I love animals more than the average human does.
12. I eat a LOT of greek yogurt.
13. I download episodes of The Biggest Loser to my ipod because it motivates me at the gym.
14. I want a new phone soooo bad.
15. I swear. A lot. I'm trying to cut back.

30 Days n Junk

In an effort to be more bloggy, I've got TWO of these things lined up. Here's my first list.

day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

day 2- the meaning behind your blog name

day 3- a picture of you and your friends

day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have

day 5- a picture of somewhere you've been to

day 6- favorite super hero and why

day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

day 8- short term goals for this month and why

day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days

day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

day 11- another picture of you and your friends

day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one

day 13- a letter to someone

day 14- a picture of you and your family

day 15- put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play

day 16- another picture of yourself

day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them

day 20- someone you love.

day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy

day 22- what makes you different from everyone else

day 23- something you crave for a lot

day 24- your last five facebook status'

day 25- what I would find in your bag

day 26- what do you think about your friends

day 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge

day 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?

day 29- in this past month, what have you learned

day 30- your favorite song

October

Frickin' October.

I know it's supposed to be all about scary stuff or whatever, so I guess it seems appropriate that my past chose October to come back and haunt me.

There's this cycle that seems to happen: you know people, people go away, you move on, people remind you that you know them, you have to figure out a way to balance that in your new life. Repeat.

There is an upside to all this. I'm reminded of who I was. I think back to that girl and where she was in her life. Would she be happy to see where she is now? Do I still feel the way she did back then? It's pleasant to be reminded that I'm still this same person, and it's never too late to revert to old ways of being.

Vague much?