My Perspective

Here's whats up.

I can't deal with old friendships and relationships. It's sad but once I move on, I'm moved on for good. I'm sorry but it's true. I had my heart broken. I've had my heart broken quite a few times, but over the course of two years I've grown from it and I honestly cannot face what hurt me back then.

I was in a very serious relationship (at least I think it was) about two years ago. He left on a mission and I completely supported it. But, as time went on, I grew into who I was and learned what I wanted and who I am. I pretty much broke it off with him and I still feel bad about it because I know I hurt his feelings and I continue to even today. I'm sorry.

My group of friends all left on their respective journies, leaving me and my best friend here to grow and explore our lives back home. I fell in love, again, and vowed I would try to wait for him. Then me and my best friend grew apart due to reasons I don't even know about today. Whatever happened to that friendship? It hurt me, she hurt me bad. I can't even think about two years ago because that friendship was lost and it was such a key part of my life back then. I've grown out of it, and I can't face all the people who are returning because it only makes my heart ache to think about the times back then.

I don't want to relive my past. I love all my old friends though, even though I don't show it. I don't know what else to say...but when I think of it I'll try to tell you.

Alphabizzle

A-Attached or Single? Attached and in looooove.

B-Best Friend? Molly and Shawnee, even though I'm so bad at being a good friend haha.

C-Cake or Pie? Apple pie pleeeeaze

D-Day of Choice? TO-day!

E-Essential Item? My cell phone.

F- Favorite color? Blue.

G-Gummy Bears or Worms? Worms, especially the sour ones

H-Hometown? Salt Lake City UT

I-Favorite Indulgence? Shoes! or underwear.

J-January or July? July, I'm so sick of winter

K-Kids? Er...

L-Life isn't complete without? Love

M-Marriage Date? Heh heh heh

N-Number of brothers and sisters? Er...

O-Oranges or Apples? Applez

P-Phobia and Fears? The north american grizzly.

Q-Quote? "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on."

R-Reason to smile? Whenever Zack does something sweet for me.

S-Season of choice? Spring and summer

T-Tag ten people? Next ten people who read this.

U-Unknown fact about me? I'm trying to go "organic"

V-Vegetable? Carrots. Or Corn. Or Squash!

W-Worst habit? Swearing

X - Best use of X in scrabble? X bow! Cross bow. or Xmas. Christmas.

Y-Your favorite food? Spring rolls or poofy cheetos. and Izzes.

Z-Zodiac Sign?- Taurus. Grr.

19th Birthday!

I had a birthday today! It was probably my favorite birthday I've had. I just feel bad there aren't any pictures, I just don't take a camera anywhere! Argh.

So this morning I woke up, did laundry (fyi, I've NEVER done my own laundry, today was my first day), and then called up Zack. Zack and I went to get lunch then we took it on a picnic (kind of) on a hike up Ensign Peak. I was exhausted and the stupid boy didn't even get winded. It was a great hike though, it made me decide I want to get in shape. I have a gym membership now so, why not?

After the hike we went to the Gateway where I bought a new bike helmet and a camelback for our future hikes. Then we saw Baby Mama and just chilled out for a while. Then bowling, where he beat me twice. The scores were soooo close (110, 119)! Jerk, he used to be really bad at bowling too.

But I went to dinner with my parents on Saturday and brought Zack so he finally met my parents after our six months of dating. He was nervous, I don't blame him, my mom is scary. Things went very well though.

I've had a very good birthday :)

Loving Rant

I feel a little silly posting a blog like this, but I honestly cannot help it.

I'm completely and indefinitely in love. I never would have thought that it would happen so soon in my life, but it did. I found my other half. He truly is my other half, I feel incomplete when he's not around.

He's amazing. Everyday he amazes me and I continue to learn from him. I turned to him when I needed a friend more than ever, and he became so much more. He makes me want to be a better person, and I would do anything for him.

We saved each other, and we're never lettin' go.

I'm so so so SO happy!

(sorry for the shortness of the post, we're on our way to spend the day together!)

Bridal Epidemic part 2

Since my previous post, I've looked around on facebook and talked to some friends and I've found out that there are MORE girls who are engaged and even a few who are PREGNANT.

MARRIED AND PREGNANT.

I graduated with these girls not even a year ago!

...Something is up in my universe. It's freaking me out. Why in a hurry to grow up? Being a grown up sucks. Take your time! Please! For my sanity!

Bridal Epidemic

My boyfriend and I have been dating for about six months now, and I've noticed a freaky trend among people that I know.

It's only happened three times, but let me tell you about each time:
One of my friends Melanie started dating Rob about the same time Zack and I started dating. So, basically, our relationships are in the same time zone. About a month ago, Melanie and Rob got married (it's cool, she's 28). I didn't think much of it, because Melanie deserved happiness and I was so glad she got it.

Yesterday, I was invited to go to Spain in November. Apparently, the Spanish boy I was supposed to go on a blind date with waaay back in October is getting married, so everyone's going there instead of Cancun for Thanksgiving. If you do the math, the Spaniard has been dating this girl for less than Zack and I have been dating.

Also yesterday, I heard through the grapevine that X is getting married...great for her! I'm happy for her, but I'm just saying, that relationship is probably the same age as mine...

I don't mean to rant (oh and also there's a girl from my senior class down a CEU who is also engaged) but...it's freakin' me out. To be fair, Zack and I have known each other for about three years. But I am not gettin' married until he at least graduates high school (insert shudder because he is still in high school).

3 A.M. Taggins!

1. What five places do you want to visit before you die?
-South Africa
-India
-New York
-Brazil
-Uh...Florida?

2. What five places have you visited so far?
(HA please)
-Ireland
-England
-Sweden
-Italy
-Spain
(This list goes onnnn...)

3. What are your top ten favorite stores?
-ANTHROPOLOGIE
-Banana Republic
-Old Navy
-Barnes & Noble
-Victoria's Secret
-Target
-Ikea
-Wild Oats
-Bed, Bath, & Beyond,
-Uh...Payless?

4. Who are your top five people that you wouldn't be able to live without?
-Zack
-Molly
-Shawnee
-My Family
-My Second Family

5. What are your top four favorite places to eat?
-(Anywhere Japanese)
-Noodles & Company
-Cafe Rio
-Zack's House

6. What is your all time favorite movie?
-(An impossible question)

7. What are your favorite books?
-Any Vonnegut
-Harry Potter
-Many classics (Dickens, Faulkner, Fight Club...)

8. What is your favorite type of candy?
-Good kind. FREE kind.

9. What is your favorite sport?
-Bowling. Because I'm awesome at it.

10. Who are you tagging?
-Andrew
-Shawnee
-Whoever else comes by this

Oh We're Goin' To A Hukilau

Alright, last week was probably the longest week of my life and I have no idea why. Well, okay, it was pretty intense. And after much deliberating and talking and just plain thinking I finally figured out what I want to do with my life.I decided I'm transferring schools and moving to Hawaii next year. I know I'm usually all talk about these sort of things, but this is totally different. It feels right and I just...I don't know, I just feel like I'm supposed to do it.

AH I'm excited!!!

Blog of Mystic Proportions!

I'm really thinking about it...

Look Out People!

It's my birthday month. Everything has to go my way.