Thursday, October 15, 2009


Tuesday, September 8, 2009

How to Deal

These are things I am learning to deal with while I try to find a job and triumph over this fall semester:

-How to live the frugal way. Since I have no free income, it is hard to see my paychecks go directly to bills.

-How to live without an iPod. My iPod died on the last day of my vacation to Ireland, and it's been difficult to get by without my music handy.

-Starting from scratch and letting go. My external hard drive was stolen, which had (what feels like) my whole life in 120 gigs.

-Walking. My feet are getting better, but worse at the same time. I don't have that shooting pain up my heel anymore, but now I have an all over pain in both heels.

-Being physically fit. I'm working hard to get into shape, not just for the benefits but so I can feel better about myself.

-Pushing myself. Whether it be socially or physically, I'm trying to not be such a social hermit.

-Patience and rejection. It's hard to fill out so many applications and not see results.

-Asking for help. Sometimes you just need to know when to ask.

-My jealousy. It gets in the way more than you'd know, and I'm trying to put my feelings aside in order to appreciate the things I do have and can control.

-Self esteem. I don't have a lot of it, but I think it'll show up soon.

-Responsibilities. I'm trying a lot harder at school and at home. I'm trying to make more face time in both places.

-Figuring out my passions. The thing that makes job searching difficult is I have no idea what I really want to do. Also, I have no experience in anything. If I could sit around all day writing, that would be perfect. Alas, I am not a successful writer. Yet.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

It's days like these where I just lose all hope. This week has been awful, and it's only Tuesday.

It feels impossible to find a new job, I've been sick, Zack has been sick for a while and it kills me to see him so sick all the time. His truck was broken into and they stole his stereo on my external hard drive.

On that hard drive was a lot, A LOT of movies, music, my pictures and all my documents, including my creative writing stuff.

I feel like I've been waiting for so long for something good to happen...I just wish I knew how much longer I had to wait. I've been waiting for a new job opportunity, waiting for a change in money, waiting to move out, waiting to graduate already, but I understand that things take time. Zack says that things are going to be this way for a few years and there is no way I'm taking years of this crap.

Well, for the creative writing that WAS

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Ireland is Beautiful

I suppose I've been back for a little over 2 weeks now and I should finally get around to blogging about my trip. HERE GOES!

A few months back, U2 announced their European tour dates, and of course my second family would be up at midnight buying tickets for the Ireland concerts. Yes, plural. We departed on July 22, and it was insanely smooth sailing the whole way there. I've never been happier on an airplane. And when we landed, I fell in love with Ireland all over again. I forgot how green and lush and European it is.

We stayed in a downtown Marriott, very five-star. Everything is within walking distance and there's always people people people.

For our first concert the next day, we waited in line from 9:00 in the morning to 4:30, when they let us into the stadium. We were right next to the stage! I could have grabbed their shoes had I a mind to do it. Walking back after the show though was painful. I've been having foot issues lately so all the walking on this trip about killed me.

The second concert was better, for me at least. Emily and I were treated like grown ups this trip so we hung around Dublin by ourselves for a while and took a taxi to the stadium at around 4:00 so we were on our own for the concert. We landed right in front of the catwalk so, not as close to the stage but still in the crowd.

The next day we spent walking about Dublin. I don't remember much of it, my feet clouded my mind.

One day before we left, we took a hop-on, hop-off tour, and Linnea had to pay Emily to go with me to the Irish Writer's Museum. Whatever. I loved it. On this trip, I replaced buying sweatshirts with books. And I bought a lot of books.

Oh I forgot, we took a bus tour to Glendalough and drove through the beautiful countryside, where Braveheart and P.S. I Love You was filmed (which I watched when I got back...sobbed).

The next two days were my favorite. We rented a van and Wayne drove us out to Limerick. Driving was a nightmare. The streets are narrow, you drive on the opposite side of the road, but the scenery was worth it.

By far my favorite leg of the trip was this road trip. We went to the Cliffs of Moher (which is astounding) and Blarney Castle, where I kissed the Blarney Stone. We stayed in Limerick, which is a cute little modern town.

Finally, on our way back (which always takes forever), our plane had to divert to Denver because a passenger had a heart attack on flight.

PICTURES! (upon request, and maybe posted later. I'm a bit lazy right now.)

Thursday, July 30, 2009

A Preview

Here I am in Dublin right now, just getting ready to fly home tomorrow!
Here is just a snippet of a blog to come...

(And yes, we were THAT close.)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Back From Washington

I tend to get complaints when I get mushy (on my own blog, no less) I will sum up my life as it is right now with a quote I saw on a shot glass.

Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow you may be in Utah.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009


I've been doing excellently in my two philosophy classes this summer. I wish I could major in philosophy, it's the best I've done in school yet.

Next semester I am registered for FIVE classes. Math 920 (sad face), Intermediate Writing (happy face!), Computer Essentials (eh face), Intro to Music (online class face) and Yoga (zen face).

I just need to supplement my income :( I'm super struggling. I am not able to go out and do so many fun things. I was supposed to go camping at Bear Lake last weekend but my paycheck said, "no." It's bumming me out.'

I know what job I want. How to come to it though...that will be a while.

Monday, June 22, 2009


I have nothing to say or add apparently.

I have a voice, I have opinions, I have feelings too.

I don't think I should bother though, because they have no meaning.

So I'll go back to sitting quietly and reading, not speaking up, because that is the precedent I have set for my impressions and there is no reason to change now.

Depressed much? No, just realizing I need a change. I don't want to be stuck in this Utahn image, where everyone succeeds their first try and gets married to a returned missionary and can afford to live that way.

I'm so screwed this upcoming July. Stay tuned.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

With my new blog ( I find myself wanting to post more personal stories I happen to write.

But I'm hesitant to...Hmm.

I am at work. I am crazy bored.

the end.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Creative Workings

I started a new, second blog. It is explicitly used for my writings.

I said, "maybe I should write a little something every day just so I can get back into it..." and Zack really pushed me to do it so I give you...

Sunday, May 31, 2009


There is this blog I follow:

It is a post a day (almost) of 101-word stories. I figured I should do something like that too. So I'll start a new blog and post my short stories there too, mostly because it's been a while since I've written and I feel like I need to practice my talent some more.

I am also on Twitter:

If you follow me on it, I like to think I'm more interesting.

Oh, here's this for Nana:

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Couples Tag

Zack and I are practically married....I'm doing this anyway. Mostly because I love talking about Zack.

♥ What are your middle names? Zack's is Nicholas, mine is Sylvain.

♥ How long have you been together? Together about a year and a half. But it feels like much much longer.

♥ How long did you know each other before you started dating? About three years.

♥ Who asked who out? He had asked me to "hang out" before, but I got busy...then I invited him to a play with me.

♥ How old are each of you? I'm 20 he's 19.

♥ Whose siblings do you see the most? His...I don't exactly have any.

♥ Do you have any children together? Gah no.

♥ What about pets? We want a dog! So bad!

♥ Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple? Uh...I'm not sure. We're not old enough to really have problems.

♥ Did you go to the same school? Sure did, we met in math class.

♥ Are you from the same home town? I'm from Salt Lake, Zack is from Provo (can you believe that?? My mind was blown.)

♥ Who is smarter? We believe that whatever I don't know, he knows, and whatever he doesn't know, I know.

♥ Who is more sensitive? I don't think we're very sensitive...

♥ Where do you eat out most as a couple? We love to try new places! So we use the urban spoon feature on his iphone a lot.

♥ Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple? Seattle. So much fun!

♥ Who has the craziest exes? Zack, no question.

♥ Who has the worst temper? We don't get angry very easily...

♥ Who does the cooking? Zack! I can't cook to save my life. He makes the best steaks.

♥Who is more social? Zack, of course. Whenever we go out ANYWHERE he runs into someone he knows.

♥ Who is the neat-freak? Me, it takes everything I have to resist cleaning when we hang out.

♥ Who is more stubborn? We're both crazy-stubborn.

♥ Who hogs the bed? Eh.

♥ Who wakes up earlier? Zack. It is impossible for me to wake up before 6:30.

♥ Where was your first date? It depends...but our first REAL date was Into The Wild. I had movie passes to Darjeeling Limited but they were full so we chose Into The Wild instead.

♥ Who has the bigger family? Zack does, by far.

♥ Do you get flowers often? No...

♥ How do you spend the holidays? Separately...

♥ Who is more jealous? ME.

♥ How long did it take to get serious? I have a tendency to get serious quick, so, a few months.

♥Who eats more? Zack, when we go out he says, "it's like I get two meals!" because I never finish mine, so I give it to Zack.

♥ Who does the laundry? I'll do his laundry from time to time.

♥ Who’s better with the computer? Zack is, but we're both skilled. He is gaining Mac knowledge while I'm improving my PC knowledge.

♥ Who drives when you are together? ZACK. I hate driving at night.

Monday, May 11, 2009

I went through a car owner right of passage today: it was broken into.

Well, I don't know if "broken into" is the right term to use. The rear driver side window was all smashed in but NOTHING WAS TAKEN!!!! UGH. That's what upset me most.

I'm super pissed. It seems that just as I get financially stable, if even just for a second, something comes along to mess it up again. Bleh.

I'm off to go buy knee pads and wrist guards! Woop!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I suppose it's been a while since I blogged...I wrote up a baking blog but it was only saved to the drafts and I don't feel like blogging about baking.

I guess this weekend kind of sucked, there's been some dramatics, I've been sick, and things have just been a bit tough.

Lately, I've wanted to grow up so fast. I just want to get married already and be graduated already and things are going too slow. I did get a jump start this week, though. I really struggled with school this semester, but Linnea really helped me out and now I'm feeling a strong urge to power through and get my degree, even if it will be just an English degree.

But, as I said, I've been dying to get married. Not really married, just engaged would be nice. I'd be okay with engaged. Bleh. Things are not in a good place right now, so we don't really have a choice but to wait. Next week Zack is going to Florida for his step-brother's wedding. I hope it makes him think...haha I'm just kidding. I get to puppy-sit though! I'm very excited. I've been DYING for a puppy for a few weeks now. If I can't get engaged, can I at least have a puppy?

Um, that's all for now. I'm trying to catch up on every Smallville season before Thursday. It's impossible. Literally, there are not enough hours.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


Yes. I made this. The super-duper final/second cut will appear on


Give me another year and I will try to follow in my mothers...skates...

Monday, March 9, 2009

100th post

I may be celebrating prematurely but...
Guess who announced their tour dates today for the European leg of their tour.
Guess who's playing in Croke Park in July 24th?
Guess who is going to Ireland this summer?

Sunday, March 8, 2009

My weekend was...eventful.

It started out with me being miserable because I hated Zack's new roommate. Oh, allow me to back track. Since his mom got remarried, she's been living at her new husbands house. Long story short, Zack and Erin and his friend moved in until she can sell it.

I hated Zack's friend. Absolutely. Bleh. He's a recovering drug addict and I found him annoying as crap until I got to know him and it turns out he's pretty cool. I'm still giving him a shot.

However, Erin is not moving in anymore because of...technicalities...

On Friday I saw Watchmen, on Saturday I saw Paul Blart (I am ashamed), and on Sunday I saw Push. I only liked Watchmen. Oh well.
Um...I think that's it for now. I would just like to say I love Zack so much and I am so glad he is here for me when I need him. He is always so great to talk to and he always makes me feel better, no matter what my problem is.
BTW, Sydney, did you hear Dakota Fanning is going to be Jane in the New Moon movie?

Thursday, February 26, 2009


Sometimes I look at my parents and wonder if people expect me to be as accomplished and awesome as they are. I am very proud of my parents and I'm glad they are mine, but I wonder if I can be that awesome too.

I think I'm setting up an interview to become an intern with the Utah Legislature. I don't think I'll get it, but there's no problem with trying. That's how I got into Westminster, I tried when I didn't think I would get in.

I guess what I'm saying is I'm going to try to be as accomplished as my parents, and then some.

I better get to studying...

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

New Room!

Squee! I am so pleased!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Across the Pond

Bleh, what a weekend.

On Friday, I spent a lot of time not working. Instead, I took time to look at study abroad options. I've wanted to study abroad since I was a senior in high school and I figured it would be nice just to look. It looks like the U has options that go to England and/or Germany, and those ones I'm super interested in. Then I ventured outside the University of Utah website and found some sites and found a program that goes to....Trinity College in Dublin (!!!). When I went to Ireland a few years ago, I came up with a dream to go to Trinity College in Dublin and I think it would be so great to go!

I was so afraid to talk to Zack about it though. But, he supports me 100%, no matter how bad it may suck to be apart for a whole semester (or summer). I probably won't be accepted into any programs right now though, seeing as my grades are not where they should be. I'm working really hard this semester though, and I think I'm doing pretty well.

Speaking of which, Zack stole me a street sign for V-Day. I was hoping for roses, but the street sign was an inside joke from when we started dating and it was actually very sweet that he actually remembered. I was sad, however, we didn't get to really do anything. We can't afford flowers and dinner or whatever. I am just glad I got to spend it with him.

Today we spent time working on my room. Tomorrow we get to paint! Squee!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


I did this already on Facebook soooo I just copied and pasted it. Befriend me on Facebook and see the second one I made to make fun of my boss.

1. I have been tagged to do this at least 5 times, and I'm just now getting around to it.

2. I have always been an independent person.

3. I am glad I met my soul mate this young because then we get to do all the great things we want to.

4. Painting is a talent I wish I had.

5. I am NOT a pack rat. I am not nostalgic, so hardly anything gets kept.

6. I would love to live on a boat and travel the world in it.

7. I think it is hard to think of 25 things.

8. My dream job is a career in televison.

9. I also wish I could play piano and sing.

10. When I was younger, I used to tell people I was from Tennessee.

11. I cannot cook to save my life. I can make a sandwich...barely.

12. I don't know a whole lot about my family history. Grandma and Grandpa got married...that's the extent of it

13. I think people give me more credit than I think I deserve.

14. I LOVE learning about the American government.

15. I am completely jealous of people who are studying abroad right now.

16. I can be quite stubborn.

17. When I was younger, my bedroom's theme was The Little Mermaid, and I just got that movie on DVD!

18. I'm not so good at sticking to plans...

19. ...but when I want something done, I get it done.

20. I have crazy jealousy issues.

21. If I was an actress, I would KILL to be in a Wes Anderson film.

22. I am relieved I am so close to #25

23. When I turn 20 I am taking charge of my life.

24. I am FAR too nosy.

25. I think my hiatus from creative writing has gone on for far too long.

Monday, February 2, 2009

School, Remodeling, and Other Stuff...

It's been a while. Here is what I've been up to.

>School is ca-raaaaazy. Waking up at the bum crack of dawn, going to class, working full time then BACK to class is exhausting. I really enjoy my classes though. Although my professor is mind-numbing, my government class is so interesting. I've always enjoyed learning about the American government and how it works so getting up at 6 a.m. every day is almost worth it. My photography class reminds me of jr. high when I took a photography class. I'm a little behind because I had to go out and buy a new camera and supplies and I'm still working out the kinks, but it is a very fun class. Lastly, news writing. I hate journalism classes. I'm already good at it, who says I need the courses. Posh.

>Work is work. If there is an Apple Spice Junction near you...order from it! We have good food...

>I decided to paint my room. It started out as a one-day job which is now turning into a month-long job. We started to sand the walls, then noticed it was wallpaper peeling. Then we just peeled it all off. Now we have to plaster and sand and prime and paint and it is taking foreverrrr. I've been sleeping in the living room because my OTHER room has a crack in the foundation and the floor is all wet. Cool.

>Zack and I are cool. He's moving back to his mom's condo with Erin while his mom tries to sell it. It'll be fun, I love that condo, I wish she wouldn't sell it so I could just live in it...Speaking of which, Erin and I have become good friends, which is awesome. Because she is awesome.

Um that's all for now. Any questions?

That's all for now.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Rebecca is...

My first paycheck of the year was crazy-small. Between bills and such, I don't have enough money for books, school supplies, etc. I need an extra boost of money for this week.

Does anyone have any ideas?

Saturday, January 3, 2009


I don't know if you know this, it's a big deal. The UTES kicked some serious Alabama butt today at the Sugar Bowl!!! GO UTES!!!!